Oh, well it's been shit the past couple of days.
I've been binging and purging the past two days and last night I got really drunk.
I don't know what my weight is now, but I had got down to 153 lbs. Which is actually 69lgs, so I'm finally below 70. I couldn't believe it when I saw the scale. Speaking of scale I got an electronic one for my place, because the one I had was not electronic and not at all accurate.
Everything else is pure shit. I have no money. I'm gonna have a house guest I don't really know staying with me for four days. My training has been changed to 6 weeks instead of four. I'm super sad and lonely and alone(literally, my sister's not around so I'm constantly alone).
I've not eaten anything today. I'm thinking of fasting. I really want to buy diet coke, but I don't know if it's a good idea seeing as I don't have money.
I just want to be thin. And maybe have a little money.
Sorry for the negativity.
Hope you're doing better.
-A.
i don't think i've heard "i've had a good couple of days" and "b/ping" in the same sentence for a reason. i'm so sorry that this happened. :( i hope you know that this does not = your worth.
ReplyDeletethis is awful. i'm so sorry, love. i hope that the turnout isn't as bad as you expected for either of those things. fingers crossed that you come across some many soon.
it is your blog. you're allowed to be as negative as you like. it's just it saddens me to know that you're feeling awful. :/
-Sam Lupin