Hello, lovely people of the Internet.
I am still alive and still fat. And I have been reading all you lovelies' posts.
So what has been going on with me, let's see. Nothing really.
I have started the new job. Yey, I'm not a lazy slob anymore. Still in the training phase though. Which I have to say is way harder than I imagined. It is also exhausting. Probably because I'm used to just lay in bed all day feeling sad and not doing much. But still I get home with just about enough strenght left to shower and eat. It's also very hard for me to interact with people there. I'm not made for this.
Fat wise, I'm still fat. Even fatter actually. I've gained back like 3lbs, or something of the sort and I do truly hate the fact that I'm getting back to my old ways. The reson is becuase the place I work in is right across a mall, so there's lots of fast food places and I never have the willpower to just not eat. At least I don't binge, right. I eat bad shit, but it's like 2 doghunts, or a litle chinese. As opposed to what I used to do - 4 doughnuts, chinese, KFC, and then go home and eat more.
It's been two weeks since I started and I'm getting used to the whole thing, so I hope that I will be back posting regularly and commenting, so bear with me.
I wish you a wonderful week! :)
I'm SO proud of you for getting a job! That was absolutely amazing to read! I hope it does you the world of good - boosts your confidence and self-esteem, improves your mental health and opens doors for you.
ReplyDeleteKeep going! Xoxo
you weren't a "lazy slob" before. don't think less of yourself. you wouldn't think someone that is obviously just still in their early 20's that hasn't gotten a job as a 'lazy slob'. you're there too. <3
ReplyDeletei hope that it gets easier soon. it is just the first few weeks. the first few days of starting something new is difficult. change is difficult, but i do hope that the anxiety goes away and you settle in nicely into your job xxx
putting on 3lbs is nothing. just saying. it is not even visible. i wouldn't even say that "you've put on weight." i'd go as far as say you're maintaining because we normally maintain within a range, NOT a particular number.
take care of yourself, love, <3. hope YOU have a wonderful week!
-Sam Lupin