Yep, it's me. I am alive. Who would have guessed. And I am also fat. No surprise there though.
I hope you have been well, my Internet friends. I have not been here in quite some time as I have been a drunk bastard for many months now. And I also work all the time. Honestly all I do is work and drink. I get drunk every other day. Due to all the alcohol and hungover binging I am now back to where I started. Fat and disgusting and alcoholic at that.
I hate myself. I hate everyone around me. I hate my job, It's horrible. At night when I go to sleep I think about dying and more specifically killing myself. Everything is too much.
I slept with three of my colleagues. Two of whom have girlfriends. Go me. I didn't know that at the time, but does it really matter. The third, well another colleague was in love with him. Before I told her the whole story.
I have gained much weight. I don't fit in my clothes anymore. I don't take care of myself. I don't even shower with days. I disgust myself. I look terrible and I feel even worse. I also suck at my job.
I need for something to happen so that I snap out of this.
Help me. Please. I don't know how much longer I can do this.
